The beginning of everything..

People who know me well, very often say this one thing about me, ‘man, you get too deep sometimes’. And for a long time now, I’ve been wondering that, am I really that reflective? Do I have insightful thoughts on things unimportant to others around me? Many sleepless nights and train rides spent wondering about my thoughts have driven me to this conclusion, no I’m not deep. But I chose to look at things differently. Not me, but my perspective is what seems to be unusual and far from ordinary.  My soul has been nourished and I truly know myself.


According to me, in everybody’s life, there is one tragic encounter that truly changes them. Losing a family member, a bad break up, failure...it could be anything. I call this trigger, the perfect accident. You are challenged, your vision is lost and your clarity is gone. You can give up and let it define you, or you can come out stronger and let it be the catalyst of your growth. Such situations reveal the real you. It’s rightly said, what matters most is how well you walk through fire.

I thought my life was ideal when ‘the perfect accident’ occurred to me. I lost everything that I had; everything that I thought was mine. I entered into a dark cloud and I thought this was where I had to live. Nothing helped and I thought things would never get better. Every night was restless and every morning was disturbed. It happens to the best of us, doesn't it?

But somewhere I knew I was better than the mess that defined me. I fought and I fought hard. And it didn't take me long to realize that there’s so much more to me than my mistakes. I fought my monsters, and I prevented myself from becoming one in the process. I spent months trying to understand myself, trying to know myself. I forgave myself. I refused to give in to the ghost of my past. I refused to border myself within the narrow boundaries of what people thought of me. I found purpose in pain. I learnt about the greatness of the human soul. That we can always be fixed, we can never be irreparably broken. Those difficult days gifted me the depth of awareness, the expanded consciousness, the increased sensitivity, and the awareness of limitation, the tenderness of love, the meaning of friendship and the appreciation of life. I committed myself in finding greatness in the smallest of things.

Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet, a little chaos, a little mess, is necessary. We must remember that we are all gifted with unimaginable strength. Realizing it, and harnessing it for our betterment, is where the real test lies. The body grows slowly and steadily but the soul grows by leaps and bounds. All it takes is will. Once you decide that you want to grow, you want to enrich yourself. Nothing can stop you. And even if it does, subconsciously your soul will develop the strength to fight it. Dig deep within yourself, find your soul. Expand your horizons.

When I lost everything, was when I found the most powerful thing within myself. Yes I’m just 16, and there’s yet a lot for me to learn, a lot of possibility to grow, many mistakes to make. But this is just the start. This is where my story begins. This is the first chapter to my tale. My mistakes yet bear a scar on my soul, but I’m proud of it because, for me, it was the beginning of everything...