2021 Archives

 How do you see your life? Do you see it as a flight, zooming through the skies, glancing at beautiful horizons but being unable to stop, always in motion, moving in immense speed to the next destination? Do you see it as a walk in a park? Where you move slowly but naturally. Where you adore and appreciate the beauty, the breath, that has been bestowed upon you now. Where you live for the present, and happily so.

I see my life as a train journey. Moving through beautiful places, in a semi anticipated route, moving through the tracks that have been laid out years and years ago. It’s been beautiful, and it brought me belongingness to the train coach I call home, and my fellow passengers I call family. My journey so far, has always overflown with comfort, happiness, and trust.

But its only this year that I realized that my train was moving in the same pre-defined paths, in circles and circles and circles. I was so accustomed to the familiar, that I forgot the excitement of getting lost at a new station, of meeting a stranger and making a friend, of having an experience that sends electricity to my whole body, of dancing, and living and seeking adventures. It hit me, and it made me realize that it was time to make changes to the life that I was so familiar with and take a few risks to embody the Saasha I have always wanted to be. I have never wanted an ordinary life, I thrive out of experiences, learning, conversations, and stories. I had to change the route of my journey, I didn’t feel ready, but I was brave, and the universe responds to courage and intent.

I grew space in my coach for newer people, people who would enter and take my world by a storm, who would remind me the importance of living every day, of chasing moments and memories and never settling.

I made space for people who have been co-passengers on the train of my life, but I had never allowed them a chance to enter my coach, I let them in. Offered them a cup of coffee and my shoulder. Gave them and myself a chance to build healthier, thriving relationships.

I reclaimed my love for travel, I departed the train at unexplored cities, where I didn’t have the comfort of an itinerary, or a return date. I took all of me, and travel helped me become more of me.

I paved my way to a learning journey, reminding myself that the thirst for knowledge and awareness is at the core of my being. I opened my eyes again to the beauty of being a student of life and a child of the world.

I dressed up for the journey. I danced through it. I ate the most wonderful food and heard music that pleased my soul. I had conversations that kept me up all night, and I saw places that yet appear in my daydreams. I smiled for days.

The journey was not free from roadblocks, but it made me recognize the strength I didn’t even know I had. I rediscovered the magic that this phenomenal world offers us, if only we choose to keep our eyes open. I was finally willing to consider things that I would have never imagined myself doing. I blew the lid of my life.

This is just the first step, and a gentle reminder, to all the future versions of Saasha. My love, life will always be the sum of the stories you can tell, and for which, you will have to go out and open your heart, mind, and body to the life that you have always dreamed about.

Here’s hoping for a 2022 filled with nerve wrecking adventure, soul satisfying conversations and connections, immense learning, extra ordinary moments, loud laughs, lots of travel, food, dance, and music. And mostly, for experiences, imagination and anticipation that remind me, of what is truly means to be alive.