Miss him?

You miss his voice? Remember he used it to destroy your self identity 

Miss his texts? Remember how he hatefully drafted them to break your peace 


Miss his touch? Remember he used it like a dagger over your head


Miss his words? Remember how he used them to gaslight everything you ever felt


Miss his smile? Remember how he forgot that you were the reason for it


Miss spending time with him? Remember how he took everything for granted


Miss how he always understood you? Remember how he used it to dig up your deepest insecurities 


Miss how you felt around him? Realise how you are feeling today because of him


Miss talking to him? Remember all the vile shit he has been talking about you


Miss the memories? Remember how he rewrote all of them to make you the villain


Miss doing things for him? Remember how they never mattered to him


Miss being loved by him? Remember he never loved you at all

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