I am

 Can we encapsulate a life of 25 years, dreams worth 50 years and memories worth a lifetime into 200 words to describe my personality? Not sure but let me try.

I am a multitude of paradoxes. I am a voracious dreamer who yet at times finds herself subscribing to society’s expectations of success. I am violently ambitious, but I allow the insecurities in my head get the better of me. I am deeply loving and caring, but I will not fight for a person wanting to leave my life. I am talkative, but I am quiet. I am an extrovert but being in bed is my safe space. I will dance all night to the grooviest of songs, but my playlist is a collection of sad girl music. I am the happiest, but I am also the saddest. I want to live unabashedly, but my people pleasing needs overpower my will to pursue my life. I am beautiful, and I am cruel. I am warm as the sun, and I am cold as ice. I am naïve and I am vicious. I can be your bravest ally and I can be your worst enemy. I preach morality but my ethics are blurry. I love deeply but I am apathetic. I live as loudly as the noises in my head. I write about my feelings, but the darkest of them are hidden inside my journals, never to be read or spoken. My tears and my laughter have an ongoing competition. I travel to find myself and I travel to hide. I read to acquire knowledge and I read to disappear. I run to get fit, and I run to save my life. I am nothing, and I am everything.

You thought this would make sense, didn’t you?

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